Depression

I need your help, yet I push you away.
I don't know what to do, I am not okay.
I need relief from the pain that I am in,
but without it I'll be lost again.

I know you don't understand, but I need you to try.
I need some help just getting by.
I don't want it to be this way,
and all I know is that I am not okay.

I'm scared to be released from all this pain
it's been there too long it's driving me insane.
I don't know why I treat me this way,
The pain is here, its ready to stay.