Long

I am lost in a memory that wont seem to heal
and stuck in a moment that seems so unreal.
Sad enough that I hurt inside,
with not enough strength to help it subside.
Floating through life as if I was dead,
and holding onto myself by a thread.
I am slipping apart through my own seems
and forgetting what this life even means.
Stuck on pause while the world moves on,
wondering why healing is taking me this long.

BLEH....

He holds my strength, he gets me through
You hold my happiness, a smile that is true.
He has been here forever, what a long time to stay.
You are brand new, something to freshen up my day.
He is what I need, what is best for me.
You're what I want, what I hope will come to be.
He's shown me loyalty, by my side he staid true
You've shown me a hard worker, a man inside you.

Skin

You see my skin
I know you do.
It is my own way
of showing you.
Yeah it hurts,
why can't you see?
This physical pain
it sets me free.
These scars they show
the pain inside.
The pain I feel
I don't want to hide.
Help me through
and protect my skin
Save me from the
pain I'm in.

Underground Addiction

I can't get out.
I don't know what to do.
I breath you in,
and fall all over you.
I'm so lost,
but so found
my love for you
is under ground

What do I have to do
when you have all of me
to get rid of you.
youre all I've come to be.
Take me in
No, go away
you should leave
but I want you to stay

You hold me tight
and embrace my skin
it was so easy
to let you in.
I'm addicted
I know, It's true.
I just can't stop
all I have is you.

You fill a need
inside of me
something that
could never be.
it's so hard
When I want to let go
Of everything that
I've come to know.

Depression

I need your help, yet I push you away.
I don't know what to do, I am not okay.
I need relief from the pain that I am in,
but without it I'll be lost again.

I know you don't understand, but I need you to try.
I need some help just getting by.
I don't want it to be this way,
and all I know is that I am not okay.

I'm scared to be released from all this pain
it's been there too long it's driving me insane.
I don't know why I treat me this way,
The pain is here, its ready to stay.

A New Red Line

I feel the pain as the knife cuts in
as it sinks deep into my skin.
I love this feeling, I don't know how,
but it's giving me relief here and now.
These scars show the world this new me,
they reveal who I have come to be.
I know you don't agree and that's okay.
I don't expect your support when I act this way.
I just want the world to see the pain inside.
I want them to see the hurt, I don't want to hide.
I love these marks cant you see,
this is what my pain has done to me.
All my emotions put into physical pain,
the relief that washes over me drives me insane.
I don't need your help I am just fine
as I create a new red line.